I wish this scar would just go away
I don’t like to hate
but I’ll admit I distaste looking at it every day… it was all my own mistake…
how can you accidentally set fire to your place
after practicing 2 weeks straight of “Set Fire to the Rain”
What is the irony of that?
With the burns and what we’re called to face every day
what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger I suppose, anyway..
when distractions consume you that’s all that it takes…
5 minutes will kill you if you’re not awake
I just wanted to take a hot bath, in a warm bathroom, then watch Smash…
See Katharine Mcphee kick ass….
but my stupid space heater kinda ruined all of that.
Not to mention the best part of it all was I definitely had on a face mask.(like a scene from a movie…least the firemen were cute -(according to my neighbor… I was busy being totally mortified and crying, lol- just to make light… thank you Fire Station 82!!!)
That entire week I was meeting very important people who looked at me like I had a disease… Then they’d look at my chest and reacted like “AHH Stay away from me!”
Just FYI— to those people… Burns are not contagious ;)
Well, It’s all very poetic… in a nightmarish sort of way… a good story to tell but…
Unfortunately its true.. in case you wondered bout the bandaids… It’s actually not a fashion statement that Soyon would approve ;)
I’m very lucky that I didn’t burn my face, or my hair, or lose my place or my faith… though there was a moment after months of restoration I almost gave up…threw it all down, knees to the floor, knowing I just couldn’t give up, but was so exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally-all I could do was pray for a way to make things work again. Desperately pleading, for some kind of miracle to keep my heart beating… to keep my art alive through the midst of the trails… and Low and Behold… God presented some miracles that have arrived.
Now all of a sudden wonderful things are happening and I’m happier than I’ve been in my life. I have an awesome job, and I get to see my “idol family” back to where I began, and get a whole new perspective on everything. I See how I could have done better had I not been so distracted and out of place, lost in my minds space, parents battling every day, calling regarding divorcing in the middle of my life’s biggest days. I wish then I could have listened to my self and the guidance I had received but most importantly follow that gut that God gave us in the first place- and I suppose everything happens for a reason at its own pace.
It’s all about learning.. and the journey, If it’s real, and you’re honestly here because your heart and your soul just will not let you go…. or your ego’s been kicked in the ass and tested too many times that you realize it’s not even an option to give up…
What you’re really capable of being is a vulnerable human being without all that bullshit swirling in your head… That’s what I respect and if you give it out-you will get that same thing back.
Tape it up and just do it… Just like Madonna said. Have no fear because you won’t crumble no matter what unravels your day… It’s all about the lessons, and what we take with us…we must utilize them in every way…. let the circumstances teach us to see the positive in every move that we make.
Shine your Light. Make It Work, and It’ll all be alright.
Love you Guys… and I’ll see you soon!
Thank you for getting me to 25K on Twitter today and giving me reason to celebrate wonderful fans who keep supporting me every day. You all inspire me. :)